Friends And Other Enemies

     i dont think im liking people very much anymore.. i always liked men more than women as a rule... women can be very sneaky.. manipulative.. backbiting and just plain mean... men tend to be rather naive about that... they see a woman with nice tits and a great smile and think ''ohhh shes great!''  then they wonder what the hell happened when they wake up and their cars gone, their saving's wiped out and their best friend has a smile on his face... men are led by their dicks.. maybe that makes em more honest, i dont know... i only know ive only ever had 4 female friends... margaret and i were inseparable  in school.. that is until she decided to go to prom with my boyfriend and asked to borrow my dress ''since i wouldnt be needing it''...  sandy and i were as close as sisters until she divorced and moved away, and now though we are only miles apart, she's never bothered to visit or call... although im sure she's been meaning to.... faye and i were close too.. until she used my kids to get back at me over some imagined slight ... i said id never again trust a women.. then janice and i became friends...  we talked all the time.. about everything.. large and small... then she got breast cancer and dropped off the face of the planet for 4 months...  wouldnt return my calls or texts or offlines... nothing... i was left to searching obituaries to make sure she wasnt dead.. then..surprise surprise.. shes back amongst the living with a off-handed wave but not a fuckin word... not one word..  so im a bitch for being angry, after all, shes had cancer... and i lost a friend... we're barely acquaintances now... 

     maybe im better off alone... my track record with people certainly hasnt been good..  but then, left alone i go round and round with these stupid women's thoughts until i sink down the drain of despair and end up depressed or worse... maybe i should give up on people and just get a cat... become the crazy cat lady and smell like cat litter all the time... i could embroidery cats onto all my clothing,  and talk of nothing but cats... to cats, because people are too hard to be with... oh fuck it.